Thursday, April 14, 2011
Wednesday, April 13, 2011
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
remain focused
its hard sometimes
to see the lines
I cannot believe
this has come so quickly
what is the time
its running out
somewhere over there
quick gotta catch up
Friday, April 1, 2011
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Alice Liddell
A portrait of Alice Liddell, who at age 20, was the inspiration for Alice in Wonderland.
Monday, March 7, 2011
Electrostroke
Future Music this weekend was absolutely amazing. Great line-up, great set up of venue, plenty of bars, plenty of toilets. For the biggest event to come to Perth it was surprisingly cruisy and hassle free.
Sunday, March 6, 2011
Sunday, February 27, 2011
hey Barbie, are you into black hair?
so two days ago, I lost my mind and dyed my hair black.
Not so sure about this situation.
I do have an escape plan though.
I can easily just shave my hair off again.
Easy!
Thursday, February 24, 2011
Hiccups
A hiccup or hiccough (pronounced /ˈhɪkʌp/ HICK-up) is a contraction of the diaphragm that repeats several times per minute.
In humans, the abrupt rush of air into the lungs causes the vocal cords to close, creating a "hic" sound.
In medicine it is known as synchronous diaphragmatic flutter (SDF), or singultus, from the Latin singult, "the act of catching one's breath while sobbing".
The hiccup is an involuntary action involving a reflex arc.
A bout of hiccups, in general, resolves itself without intervention, although many home remedies claim to shorten the duration. Medical treatment is occasionally necessary in cases of chronic hiccups.
In medicine it is known as synchronous diaphragmatic flutter (SDF), or singultus, from the Latin singult, "the act of catching one's breath while sobbing".
The hiccup is an involuntary action involving a reflex arc.
A bout of hiccups, in general, resolves itself without intervention, although many home remedies claim to shorten the duration. Medical treatment is occasionally necessary in cases of chronic hiccups.
Monday, February 21, 2011
light
Engage this hope this dream, for you are not unseen. Your words in jumble I see and but do not see clearly. I am enthralled I am curious. What is it that you see. Dark nights. Dark thoughts. On the edge. Sanity? The light shines. Close my eyes, sweet sweet smell. So close. So clear. Light hearted chit chat. I swim in this water. I hold my breath underwater. Sensory deprivation.
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
centrelink
I would just like to have a winge about Centrelink, I have been applying for centrelink payments since the 21st of december 2010, and still have not recieved anything. I have given everything you have asked for and more yet have still not recieved anything. Damn you. i'm lucky my dad has been able to support me, what would people who didn't have that support do if they hadn't recieved any money for over 2 months. Get your act together centrelink.
Monday, February 14, 2011
Saturday, February 12, 2011
Thursday, February 10, 2011
blue light
You'll find it hiding in shadows.
You'll find it hiding in cupboards.
It will walk you home safe every night.
It will help you remember.
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
horse milk
Horse milk has long been a popular gourmet food with a uniquely delicious flavor and subtle nuances found in no ordinary dairy product. Horse milk has fruity undertones, a smooth finish and is now joining truffles and Beluga caviar as one of the most coveted treats on the world. Let’s take a closer look and see why horse milk is taking the gourmet scene by storm
The first reason for drinking horse milk is, of course, not cosmetic but medical, especially for metabolical, gastrointestinal and liver problems, but also for recovering after surgery and severe illness, cholesterol problems, allergy to cows’ milk, stress, skin problems, stiff joints or just to keep fit and well.
Horse milk strengthens the body, boosts the immune system and increases a person’s energy and vitality. In the case of metabolic disorders, it stimulates internal cleansing.
Friday, February 4, 2011
Life
Cause you will never get on top off this,
So mommy best advice is to get on top of this.
Have you ever had sex with a pharoah?
I put the pussy in a sarcophagus,
Now she claiming I bruise her esophagus,
Head of the class and she just want a swallowship.
I'm living the future so the presence is my past,
My presence is a present kiss my ass.
So mommy best advice is to get on top of this.
Have you ever had sex with a pharoah?
I put the pussy in a sarcophagus,
Now she claiming I bruise her esophagus,
Head of the class and she just want a swallowship.
I'm living the future so the presence is my past,
My presence is a present kiss my ass.
Wednesday, February 2, 2011
mofo
How should I begin this? I'm just so offended. How am I even mentioned by all these fucking beginners? I'm so appalled. All these little bitches burning their little bridges; fucking ridiculous.
Acceptance
I have been accepted into University to study a Bachelor of Arts in Photography and Illustration!!
I am so happy. I'm excited for the challenge, I know there are going to be moments where I struggle but am going to push through and complete the course. Going to give it my all!!!
I feel happy I have a plan now, the past few months have been hard, idling not sure what i'm going to be doing this year.
I am so happy. I'm excited for the challenge, I know there are going to be moments where I struggle but am going to push through and complete the course. Going to give it my all!!!
I feel happy I have a plan now, the past few months have been hard, idling not sure what i'm going to be doing this year.
Monday, January 31, 2011
I need you so much closer
The Atlantic was born today and I'll tell you how...
The clouds above opened up and let it out.
I was standing on the surface of a perforated sphere
When the water filled every hole.
And thousands upon thousands made an ocean,
Making islands where no island should go.
Oh no.
Those people were overjoyed; they took to their boats.
I thought it less like a lake and more like a moat.
The rhythm of my footsteps crossing flatlands to your door have been silenced forever more.
The distance is quite simply much too far for me to row
It seems farther than ever before
Oh no.
I need you so much closer.
So come on.
The clouds above opened up and let it out.
I was standing on the surface of a perforated sphere
When the water filled every hole.
And thousands upon thousands made an ocean,
Making islands where no island should go.
Oh no.
Those people were overjoyed; they took to their boats.
I thought it less like a lake and more like a moat.
The rhythm of my footsteps crossing flatlands to your door have been silenced forever more.
The distance is quite simply much too far for me to row
It seems farther than ever before
Oh no.
I need you so much closer.
So come on.
The Unknown
She moves without purpose,
I cannot fathom the intent.
What is it that goes on at night?
I am so far away.
To close to say anything,
Doubting myself.
What is it that she want's?
Could this be possible?
Am I in a dream?
Yearn for the day,
You know how I feel.
I wish things were that simple,
Your mind is far from simple.
Your best attribute.
Sunday, January 30, 2011
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Friday, January 28, 2011
Crazy
I remember when, I remember, I remember when I lost my mind
There was something so pleasant about that place.
Even your emotions had an echo
In so much space
And when you're out there
Without care,
Yeah, I was out of touch
But it wasn't because I didn't know enough
I just knew too much
Does that make me crazy?
Possibly
probably
And I hope that you are having the time of your life
But think twice, that's my only advice
Come on now, who do you, who do you, who do you, who do you think you are,
Ha ha ha bless your soul
You really think you're in control
Well, I think you're crazy
I think you're crazy
I think you're crazy
Just like me
There was something so pleasant about that place.
Even your emotions had an echo
In so much space
And when you're out there
Without care,
Yeah, I was out of touch
But it wasn't because I didn't know enough
I just knew too much
Does that make me crazy?
Possibly
probably
And I hope that you are having the time of your life
But think twice, that's my only advice
Come on now, who do you, who do you, who do you, who do you think you are,
Ha ha ha bless your soul
You really think you're in control
Well, I think you're crazy
I think you're crazy
I think you're crazy
Just like me
Wednesday, January 26, 2011
Sunday, January 23, 2011
Saturday, January 22, 2011
Hotel made of rubbish
A NEW hotel has opened in the heart of Madrid proudly declaring that it's complete rubbish.
More of a wooden shack than a five-star establishment, the walls of the Beach Garbage Hotel are strewn with detritus dragged up by the tide, recovered from landfills or snapped up at flea markets.
Among the wall decorations: Plastic drums, wooden frames, musical instruments, striped socks, tyres, and children's books.
In the five rooms there are street lights, wobbly sideboards, and torn Persian rugs, ready to welcome the lucky winners of a Facebook competition whose prize was a free stay.
Out front, there is a small patch of sand and palm trees.
Located in the city centre's Plaza de Callao, it is the work of German artist Ha Schult, timed to coincide with Madrid's hosting of the annual international tourism trade fair.
"I created the Beach Garbage Hotel because the oceans of our planet are the biggest garbage dump," Mr Schult said.
Rosa Piqueras, spokeswoman for the environmental project, said the idea was to show something a little different from the ideal destinations touted by the tourism industry.
"We wanted to show what our holidays could become if we don't clean our beaches," she said.
About 30-40 per cent of the objects adorning the hotel were picked up from beaches in Britain, France, Germany, Italy and Spain. The dirtiest, said Piqueras, were the beaches in southern Italy.
Hotel notices warn guests of environmental developments, such as: "One Spaniard in 10 no longer goes to the beach because of their bad state. Fourteen per cent of Europeans do the same."
Article taken from - www.news.com.au
Link: http://www.news.com.au/travel/world/rubbish-hotel-opens-in-heart-of-madrid/story-e6frfqai-1225991806719
More of a wooden shack than a five-star establishment, the walls of the Beach Garbage Hotel are strewn with detritus dragged up by the tide, recovered from landfills or snapped up at flea markets.
Among the wall decorations: Plastic drums, wooden frames, musical instruments, striped socks, tyres, and children's books.
In the five rooms there are street lights, wobbly sideboards, and torn Persian rugs, ready to welcome the lucky winners of a Facebook competition whose prize was a free stay.
Out front, there is a small patch of sand and palm trees.
Located in the city centre's Plaza de Callao, it is the work of German artist Ha Schult, timed to coincide with Madrid's hosting of the annual international tourism trade fair.
"I created the Beach Garbage Hotel because the oceans of our planet are the biggest garbage dump," Mr Schult said.
Rosa Piqueras, spokeswoman for the environmental project, said the idea was to show something a little different from the ideal destinations touted by the tourism industry.
"We wanted to show what our holidays could become if we don't clean our beaches," she said.
About 30-40 per cent of the objects adorning the hotel were picked up from beaches in Britain, France, Germany, Italy and Spain. The dirtiest, said Piqueras, were the beaches in southern Italy.
Hotel notices warn guests of environmental developments, such as: "One Spaniard in 10 no longer goes to the beach because of their bad state. Fourteen per cent of Europeans do the same."
Article taken from - www.news.com.au
Link: http://www.news.com.au/travel/world/rubbish-hotel-opens-in-heart-of-madrid/story-e6frfqai-1225991806719
Ocean Breeze
Wind rushing, the pull of gravity.
Balloons float on by,
Unaware of their non-existent destination.
Small feet imprint the sand,
Millions of tiny grains creating this landscape.
Tidal pull creating the movement,
White wash spilling onto the shore.
I lick my lips and can taste the salt,
I breath in the fresh Ocean Breeze.
Grammar
Grammar is important. Capitalization is the difference between helping you Uncle Jack off a horse, and helping your uncle jack off a horse.
Friday, January 21, 2011
Anatidaephobia
Anatidaephobia is derived from the Greek word "anatidae", meaning ducks, geese or swans and "phobos" meaning fear.
What Causes Anatidaephobia?
As with all phobias, the person coping with Anatidaephobia has experienced a real-life trauma. For the anatidaephobic individual, this trauma most likely occurred during childhood.
Perhaps the individual was intensely frightened by some species of water fowl. Geese and swans are relatively well known for their aggressive tendencies and perhaps the anatidaephobic person was actually bitten or flapped at. Of course, the Far Side comics did little to minimize the fear of being watched by a duck.
While we may be tempted to smile at the memory of those comics or at the mental image of being watched by a duck, for the anatidaephobic person, that fear is uncontrollable. Whatever the cause, the anatidaephobic person can experience emotional turmoil and anxiety that is completely disruptive to daily functioning.
Pussytown
"How did you learn, how did, how did your pussy game come up?
I was fucking parts of your pussy I never fucked before,
I was in there like, "Oh shit I never been here before,
I've never even seen this part of Pussy Town before"
I was fucking parts of your pussy I never fucked before,
I was in there like, "Oh shit I never been here before,
I've never even seen this part of Pussy Town before"
My motto for life
Cause you will never get on top off this
So mommy best advice is just to get on top of this
Have you ever had sex with a pharoah
I put the p-ssy in a sarcophagus
Now she claiming I bruise her esophagus
Head of the class and she just want a swallowship
I’m living the future so the presence is my past
My presence is a present kiss my ass
Kanye West - Monster
So mommy best advice is just to get on top of this
Have you ever had sex with a pharoah
I put the p-ssy in a sarcophagus
Now she claiming I bruise her esophagus
Head of the class and she just want a swallowship
I’m living the future so the presence is my past
My presence is a present kiss my ass
Kanye West - Monster
Thursday, January 20, 2011
Irritation
Today I feel quite irritable. I am wanting to do things to bide the time but am feeling so unmotivated. It's hard being down at my Dad's house because catching up with friends is something that needs to be planned in advance. I'm more of a spontaneous person who likes to live for the moment and roll with whatever comes. My past still lingers in my mind. I'm finding that I have a lot of anger towards the people who have hurt me in the past. This anger is manifesting inside of me and is irritating me because I wish I could just forget the past. I feel hatred and I don't like feeling that way. I feel frustrated as I don't want to have to ever think about certain people, it makes me feel back to square one. I hate it how certain people have moulded me into the person I am today and I feel its unfair that they go along in their merry little lives while I am struggling and working so hard to remain alive. I'm hoping to God that I get into uni because I really need things to distract me. That in itself is frustrating, I wish that I could just be content doing nothing, well I would be if it didn't mean that my mind would instantly drift into it's dark side. I am sick of fighting my depression, I wish that I just didn't have depression, I wish that I would just get sad at the sad things in life and that I could be genuinely happy the rest of the time. I'm sick of feeling unsafe when I am by myself.
That's my rant for the day.
Phew.
That's my rant for the day.
Phew.
Wednesday, January 19, 2011
El Nino
Warm high pressure,
Cool summer's breeze.
You come every 5 years,
You leave with no eaze.
Pacific heat reservoir,
Driving earths ocean.
Nutrient rich saline water,
Putting Pacific fish in motion.
Cool summer's breeze.
You come every 5 years,
You leave with no eaze.
Pacific heat reservoir,
Driving earths ocean.
Nutrient rich saline water,
Putting Pacific fish in motion.
Monday, January 17, 2011
Tuesday - Clumsy Day
Just baked some cupcakes, and a jam and cream sponge cake. So yummy. I've burnt my finger on the oven which is getting more and more painful. Also was taking the bins down my drive and rolled over my foot which is now swollen. I wonder what else this day may bring me.
Sunday, January 16, 2011
Monday Boredom
Last night I had a dream that my sisters were swimming down at the beach, part of the beach had been closed off because there was a hammer-head shark in the area. We were all playing around in the water and then we accidentaly drifted into the area where the hammer-head shark was. We all kind of freaked out because we could see the shark and it was massive. It then came up to us and we tried to get away, but then realised that the shark wasn't going to attack us. We then proceeded to pat the shark and swim with it. Then the ranger came and yelled at us for putting ourselves in danger. We tried to explain to him that the shark was friendly but he wouldnt listen to us. We each touched the shark lightly on the nose so then it had our scent for when we cam back next time and then got out of the water. RANDOM!
Thursday, January 13, 2011
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
Day One
I have just spent over two weeks in hospital getting treatment and help with my depression and mood disorders. Today I was released from hospital, and have moved down to live at my dad's house. Everyone has been very supportive which is giving me the motivation to get better. I feel a bit lonely at dad's house because he lives quite far from the city, which means I am far from my friends and far from my life. It's good because i'm going to be going to uni and wont have to worry about paying rent. Just feel a tad trapped. But am conciously remaining positive!
Monday, January 10, 2011
Saturday, January 8, 2011
Fresh Start
I've had a life changing few weeks.
A couple of weeks ago I came to a point where I saw no possible future for myself and took action to leave this world. After doing so and surviving I have come to realise that it was not my time to leave this world. It has taken me a while to come to this within my own mind. I have realised that you only get one chance at life, and now I have been given the opportunity to start again and give it another try. So thats what i'm going to do!
A couple of weeks ago I came to a point where I saw no possible future for myself and took action to leave this world. After doing so and surviving I have come to realise that it was not my time to leave this world. It has taken me a while to come to this within my own mind. I have realised that you only get one chance at life, and now I have been given the opportunity to start again and give it another try. So thats what i'm going to do!
Friday, January 7, 2011
Thursday, December 16, 2010
Monday, December 13, 2010
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Saturday, November 27, 2010
Sunday, November 21, 2010
Monday
Today is Monday, got up bright and early to have my first day back at work after being off for 3 weeks sick. Got to work in my corporate outfit only to be told that I need to have a medical cert to say that i'm well enough to go back to work. So have to wait for my doctor to write me one before I can go back to work, so now i'm at home boredom.
That is all.
That is all.
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Soundtrack To My Life
I got 99 problems and they all bitches.
I've got some issues that nobody can see
and all of these emotions are pourin' outta me.
I bring them to the light for you.
It's only right,
This is the soundtrack to my life,
The soundtrack to my life.
I'm super paranoid like a sixth sense,
Since my father died I ain’t been right since,
and I tried to piece the puzzle of the universe,
Split an eighth of shrooms just so I can see the universe,
I try to think about myself as a sacrifice,
Just to show the kids they ain’t the only ones up tonite,
The moon will illuminate my room and soon i’m consumed by my doom,
Once upon a time nobody gave a fuck,
It’s all said and done and my cocks been sucked,
So now im in the cut, alcohol in the womb,
My hearts an open sword and hope it heals soon.
I've got some issues that nobody can see
and all of these emotions are pourin' outta me.
I bring them to the light for you.
It's only right,
This is the soundtrack to my life,
The soundtrack to my life.
I'm super paranoid like a sixth sense,
Since my father died I ain’t been right since,
and I tried to piece the puzzle of the universe,
Split an eighth of shrooms just so I can see the universe,
I try to think about myself as a sacrifice,
Just to show the kids they ain’t the only ones up tonite,
The moon will illuminate my room and soon i’m consumed by my doom,
Once upon a time nobody gave a fuck,
It’s all said and done and my cocks been sucked,
So now im in the cut, alcohol in the womb,
My hearts an open sword and hope it heals soon.
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Conversations
3 years? That's why you smell hey. I used to get paid like $35 an hour. When I was younger I used to get confused what the post office was. Looks like some sort of sex dungeon. You right mate.
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
Cognitive Behavioural Therapy
Cognitive Behavioural Therapy (CBT) is a form of therapy based on the idea that we make interpretations of ourselves, others and the world constantly. These interpretations or 'self-talk' are based on expectations and beliefs that we have learned from others or through our own experiences.
Our self-talk, therefore, determines how we feel. We may choose to interpret and event in a negative unhelpful way and therefore feel negative or in a more positive and helpful way and therefore feel positive.
Our self-talk also therefore impacts on our behaviour or the things we choose to do. In fact, it then becomes a cycle with the behaviour impacting on the original situation and giving us another opportunity to make an interpretation.
Negative Automatic Thoughts
Negative automatic thoughts can become habitual. The more you think negatively, the lower your mood is likely to become and if this happens then you are more likely to think negatively. It is a vicious cycle. You are constantly describing the world to yourself, giving each event or experience some label. You make interpretations of yourself, of what you see and hear. You judge events as good or bad, painful or pleasurable, and you predict whether they will bring you danger or relative safety. These labels and judgements are fashioned from the unending dialogue, which you have with yourself.
Our self-talk, therefore, determines how we feel. We may choose to interpret and event in a negative unhelpful way and therefore feel negative or in a more positive and helpful way and therefore feel positive.
Our self-talk also therefore impacts on our behaviour or the things we choose to do. In fact, it then becomes a cycle with the behaviour impacting on the original situation and giving us another opportunity to make an interpretation.
Negative Automatic Thoughts
Negative automatic thoughts can become habitual. The more you think negatively, the lower your mood is likely to become and if this happens then you are more likely to think negatively. It is a vicious cycle. You are constantly describing the world to yourself, giving each event or experience some label. You make interpretations of yourself, of what you see and hear. You judge events as good or bad, painful or pleasurable, and you predict whether they will bring you danger or relative safety. These labels and judgements are fashioned from the unending dialogue, which you have with yourself.
hopeless love
this broken heart is too weak to hold your weight.
and now i regret the day we met.
help me forget your name.
Saturday, November 6, 2010
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